Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Dreams....
In My Dreams, It's still the same...your love is strong, it still remains
Dreamin'....Visions of you....feelin'...all the love I never knew...
Nooooo...only in my dreeeaaams...as real as it may seeeeemm..It was on-ly in myyyy dreeaams.
ohhhh..Dreaaam Weaaver....I be-lieve you can get me throughhhh the ni-hiiiight!
Dream ooonn...DREAM OOON!
O.K. So I've been pondering this invitation to dream big. I don't like this invitation. It makes me very uncomfortable, because as a Jesus Follower...I have trained myself to take life one day at a time...rather than plan out any longterm plans for what might be in store for me, or for christianity in my community and world as they stand and face the evils in it. The thing about the one day at a time habit is, though....is that each day might be my last on earth...and while I continually battle thoughts as to how that might be OK...I realize that to dream big on any given day is important. It is important to me, it is important to god, and it certainly must be important to all the people in my LIFE group on Wednesday night...because the silence in there was deafening...One might expect a cool dream from each person as the question was asked...but I don't recall more than maybe two or three responses...Now is that because we AREN'T dreaming big? I truthfully don't think so...I think maybe either our dreams are so scary big...we either cannot comprehend or grasp them...or cannot bring ourselves to tell others...fearing any slight reaction to these visions might shatter the very concept of them all together. I certainly know my personal dreams of an intimate relationship shared with a person of the opposite gender that eventually lead to a christ following family are screaming at me...But I tread these dream waters carefully...for fear any wrong step will shatter them....maybe it's like this song...Shattered Dreams by Johnny Hates Jazz!
And now you've given me, given me,
Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams,
Feel like I could run away, run away,
From this empty heart....
Dreamin'....Visions of you....feelin'...all the love I never knew...
Nooooo...only in my dreeeaaams...as real as it may seeeeemm..It was on-ly in myyyy dreeaams.
ohhhh..Dreaaam Weaaver....I be-lieve you can get me throughhhh the ni-hiiiight!
Dream ooonn...DREAM OOON!
O.K. So I've been pondering this invitation to dream big. I don't like this invitation. It makes me very uncomfortable, because as a Jesus Follower...I have trained myself to take life one day at a time...rather than plan out any longterm plans for what might be in store for me, or for christianity in my community and world as they stand and face the evils in it. The thing about the one day at a time habit is, though....is that each day might be my last on earth...and while I continually battle thoughts as to how that might be OK...I realize that to dream big on any given day is important. It is important to me, it is important to god, and it certainly must be important to all the people in my LIFE group on Wednesday night...because the silence in there was deafening...One might expect a cool dream from each person as the question was asked...but I don't recall more than maybe two or three responses...Now is that because we AREN'T dreaming big? I truthfully don't think so...I think maybe either our dreams are so scary big...we either cannot comprehend or grasp them...or cannot bring ourselves to tell others...fearing any slight reaction to these visions might shatter the very concept of them all together. I certainly know my personal dreams of an intimate relationship shared with a person of the opposite gender that eventually lead to a christ following family are screaming at me...But I tread these dream waters carefully...for fear any wrong step will shatter them....maybe it's like this song...Shattered Dreams by Johnny Hates Jazz!
And now you've given me, given me,
Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams,
Feel like I could run away, run away,
From this empty heart....
