Saturday, August 16, 2008
Dreams...part two
It has been a very long time that I remember having a dream...
Well, I finally had another one last night! But before I begin to break it down for you a little...I feel I must praise god for giving me a dream. It HAS been frustrating not being able to either dream...or remember having a dream. Wikipedia defines a dream as "images, thoughts and feelings experienced while sleeping, particularly strongly associated with rapid eye movement sleep. The contents and biological purposes of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history." I personally think this may mean I am reaching a point that I actually might have an IMPORTANT desire to reach a goal for the first time in god knows how long. "Soul Cravings" by Erwin McManus has been a beacon of light in what has been an otherwise darkened existence since I decided to part ways with someone I had a 7 year relationship with. Don't get me wrong...I'm very glad I moved away from that self-described "poison relationship" and things are good now with that. The thing is, I crave connection so much right now, and even though that is very appeasable with my current situation back in Rochester again and surrounded by people who care about me....This passion for trying to make the world a better place for others is apparantly frustrating me again to the point that I believe things in my own life are not moving ahead quickly enough...that this self sacrifice, while rewarding...has become so frustrating. I shared with a very good friend a few months ago how shocked I was at myself for being so jealous and envious of a new couple I know. Another good friend very recently shared that God will have a plan, and with that encouragement, I truly believe this dream I had gives me hope that there will be a point coming that I will know why and how and what it is exactly that I can’t understand about where I am going in life. I also recently shared at LIFE group that I had slowed down greatly in my prayers recently, and that it felt like I was piloting an airplane in circles at forty thousand feet with a threat of the engines shutting down. How grateful I am that I've got some great co-pilots/engineers/flight attendants/air traffic controllers in my life right now! Life Rocks!(and so does this job...though low-paying and the fact I am stuck for an 8 hour Saturday...I have had no phone calls or visitors for over 3 hours since I opened the office! Freaky!)
Well, I finally had another one last night! But before I begin to break it down for you a little...I feel I must praise god for giving me a dream. It HAS been frustrating not being able to either dream...or remember having a dream. Wikipedia defines a dream as "images, thoughts and feelings experienced while sleeping, particularly strongly associated with rapid eye movement sleep. The contents and biological purposes of dreams are not fully understood, though they have been a topic of speculation and interest throughout recorded history." I personally think this may mean I am reaching a point that I actually might have an IMPORTANT desire to reach a goal for the first time in god knows how long. "Soul Cravings" by Erwin McManus has been a beacon of light in what has been an otherwise darkened existence since I decided to part ways with someone I had a 7 year relationship with. Don't get me wrong...I'm very glad I moved away from that self-described "poison relationship" and things are good now with that. The thing is, I crave connection so much right now, and even though that is very appeasable with my current situation back in Rochester again and surrounded by people who care about me....This passion for trying to make the world a better place for others is apparantly frustrating me again to the point that I believe things in my own life are not moving ahead quickly enough...that this self sacrifice, while rewarding...has become so frustrating. I shared with a very good friend a few months ago how shocked I was at myself for being so jealous and envious of a new couple I know. Another good friend very recently shared that God will have a plan, and with that encouragement, I truly believe this dream I had gives me hope that there will be a point coming that I will know why and how and what it is exactly that I can’t understand about where I am going in life. I also recently shared at LIFE group that I had slowed down greatly in my prayers recently, and that it felt like I was piloting an airplane in circles at forty thousand feet with a threat of the engines shutting down. How grateful I am that I've got some great co-pilots/engineers/flight attendants/air traffic controllers in my life right now! Life Rocks!(and so does this job...though low-paying and the fact I am stuck for an 8 hour Saturday...I have had no phone calls or visitors for over 3 hours since I opened the office! Freaky!)
